The Rising of The Divine Feminine
By Robin D. Duncan

 

 

Growing up as a tomboy with bare feet and riding my horse bareback, didn’t lend itself much to the girlie stuff. I was more than happy chasing my two ducks around and spending countless hours with my best friend in the barn playing with the animals. My favorite job was taking care of our garden which covered about a quarter of an acre. I wasn’t much for inside work. Come to think of it... I am still not! As a little girl, I would go off with my Dad to his plumbing shop and come home smiling and covered in grease.

There wasn’t anything that I thought I couldn’t do. For some unknown reason, I had this drive inside of me to be financially independent. By age 11, I had five part-time jobs, cleaning homes and offices. My biggest arguments with my Mother were over wanting to buy my own school clothes. She grew weary trying to convince me that it was their job to take care of me.

I’m not sure where all of this “I can do anything” attitude came from. Later in life, the drive continued. I began my first real job as an assistant bookkeeper, and within 14 years became the chief financial officer for a 100-million-dollar company. Again, the sense that I could do anything I set my mind to, stayed with me. All along the way, I was building a self-image; the person I thought I was.

And then... like a flash, my magical wand broke. Within the same month, I finalized a divorce from a 16-year marriage and was laid off when our entire office shut down for consolidation. Wham! Right between the eyes. I felt like a prize fighter who had been cold-conked by a fist I never saw coming. As I fell to my knees, everything I knew in the past didn’t make sense anymore. My attitude of “I can do anything” left before I even opened my eyes.

The next few years were spent learning how to get up again. During my emotional rehab, it took a long time to put the pieces back together. I had spent so much time and effort building something that disappeared right before my eyes, and I wasn’t motivated to build it all again. At least, not in the same way. I wore “guilt” on my sleeve like a badge of honor. I kept thinking about the mistakes I had made and how everything could have been different, if I had only taken a different course.

It was about that time when I was introduced to A Course in Miracles. I soaked it up like a sponge. It was like an addiction of sorts. There was something in there I needed... just to survive. The Course taught me how to work with guilt and to find my innocence beneath the heavy armor. It also taught me about worthiness and how we cannot alter what was created in us. These words were like a soothing salve in a deep wound. The more I allowed the words to enter my consciousness, the more my motivation began to reemerge.

I learned an amazing technique called “EFT” or Emotional Freedom Techniques. I used EFT daily to release stress, anxiety and other negative emotions. I was so intrigued by this powerful, yet simple technique, that I started sharing it with other people. For the first time in my life, I felt like I was really contributing. After going through so much pain myself, I knew how extraordinary it was to have emotional and physical pain leave in a matter of minutes. I helped hundreds of people at no charge through the EFT website and began offering public demos to share the technique.

Before I knew it, I was right back into my “I can do anything” attitude, only this time, things were different. There was something noticeably missing. I think the common term for it is “cash”.  For the first time in my life, I was learning how to share with others through an act of unconditional love, yet I didn’t know how to financially survive. The work that I was doing was bringing me the greatest fulfillment I had ever known, yet the bills swelled in front of me like a dark, ominous mountain.

In prayer, I asked the obvious question, “What the heck is going on?” I never had trouble making money before, but now it seemed that money was being withheld, almost like a conspiracy against me. I played victim for about five minutes and returned to prayer. Through numerous dialogues with the higher part of my mind, I learned that I had forgotten how to be a “receiver”.  

At a higher level of consciousness, we are all receivers and our Creator is the giver of everything.  At a lower level, in the realm of duality, I had chosen to be a female; once again, a receiver. I learned that in my eagerness to play all of the roles myself: giver, receiver, provider, masculine, and feminine, that I had lost touch with my feminine choice.

The more I moved into the feminine aspect of Divine Love, I was, by choice, allowing the masculine energy to step forward to support me. All things are in equilibrium. Because I had spent so much time playing the role of a giver and provider, it was very unfamiliar to receive the support being assembled on my behalf.

I hope I have not ruffled feathers here. Within each of us is the all of everything. We have within us the capacity to play any role we desire. I am only offering that to fully play and experience the role we selected, we must step into the entire costume and not play everyone else’s role at the same time. I had learned that being a giver was good and being a receiver was bad. This was the most important false idea brought to my attention. Giving and receiving are the same in truth.

I have spent the last couple of years merging even more deeply into the feminine aspect of Divine Love. With every step I have taken in that direction, a counterstep has been taken by the men in my life, to provide loving, financial support. At first I bounced it, because of the feelings of unworthiness and self-judgment that needed to be cleared away.

Each day, I feel closer to the Divine Mother and see her loving, wise, and compassionate spirit rising through every woman I know and meet. As my eyes and heart become more focused on the gentle feminine aspects of Divine Love, I find the masculine energy is flowing powerfully through the men in my life, in the form of abundance, support, protection and strength.

I now accept my role as a female on this planet; a receiver in the physical realm. I am grateful for the grand opportunity to embrace, accept and offer Divine Motherly love in a way I never before understood.

Robin D. Duncan is a Certified Instructor for The National Guild of Hypnotists and the Executive Director of The Miracle Center of California. The Miracle Center is a School for Certification in Hypnotherapy and Holistic Healing Center, offering private miracle counseling sessions and a variety of classes to the public. The Miracle Center combines the principles of A Course in Miracles with curriculum from The National Guild of Hypnotists and the latest in other sound and energy therapies. Tel: (888) 773-9174. www.miraclecenterofca.com

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