In her new book, Rock Your World with the Divine Mother (New World Library), she talks about the power of the Divine Mother to help you create miracles in your life.
Sondra leads 3-day “God Trainings” focused on spiritual practices related to the
Divine Mother, Babaji, and
A Course in Miracles. She also leads rebirthing workshops and trains
rebirthers all over the world. Please visit:
Randy Peyser: In your new book, you share many experiences you have had with spiritual teachers you perceive to be an extension of the Divine Mother. One of those people is Ammachii, who is known as ‘the hugging saint.’ Years ago, I had an experience of meeting her. I was surrounded by hundreds of people who were chanting, but I was not feeling
particularly moved. At one point, I closed my eyes, and in seconds I was blasted with white light. It kept coming in big waves. Then when I opened my eyes, I saw Ammachii was extending her arm like she was throwing this light, and she was laughing. Can you explain what was happening?
Sondra Ray: Ammachii is light. She is able to handle more light in her body than most people. She is probably the highest female saint on the planet today in a body that is alive. She can extend this light anytime she wants, anywhere.
Because she is total light, she doesn’t have an ego, so there is nothing to interfere with her light. We all are light, but most of our lights are dimmer because we have an ego. She has no separation from God. That is why she is able to perform miracles and hug 15,000 people in one sitting, which no ordinary person could ever do. Her light is constant and it never diminishes.
So she gave you a big dose in that moment. I can’t say why she gave it to you
individually in that way, but it’s a blessing for you. When we are surrendering
in that moment, we can feel it. So, somehow in that moment you surrendered
enough to feel it. If we are always surrendered to the Divine Mother, maybe we
would feel it in that way, too.
Randy: You are known as an expert in the realm of relationships and rebirthing. What led you to the Divine Mother?
Sondra: I was traveling all over the world. At one point, I was in Santa Fe and someone told me about a spiritual guide, named Beth. So, I went to see her, and even before I sat down, she said, “Oh you! ‘They’ want you to create something beyond the feminist movement.”
I asked for more information, but she had no further information for me. All she said was that I would have to decide if I would accept this mission. She then advised me to create an altar and make my decision. I wrote to the Spiritual Hierarchy: “If I am born to this, I accept, but can I have more information?”
Suddenly, a wind like a ‘cyclone’ went through the house. I felt afraid. I didn’t know what it was. My left hip started hurting badly, too. Finally, I went to India. I did a ceremony with my girlfriends in the Ganges, and as we prayed, I looked toward the Divine Mother Fire Temple and I got it: “It is the Divine Mother movement, and the reason it is beyond the feminist movement is because it includes men!”
I realized that all the great yogis and masters I had studied with in
India were males. The reason they were able to perform miracles is
because they were all joined to the Divine Mother. My gurus were praying to the
Divine Mother for hours every day. I started going to Navaratri, which is a
festival of the Divine Mother, and we did nine days of ceremony devoted to the
Randy: Is the Divine Mother specific to any one religion?
Sondra: The Divine Mother is beyond all religions. She is the feminine aspect of God, or you could say she was the original spark of creation or life force, which is also a feminine aspect. In India, they say there is nothing higher than worshiping the Divine Mother, because you are worshipping the life force itself with the spark of creation. Or you could say she is the intelligence behind matter.
When I asked to understand the Divine Mother, many miracles happened. I hadn’t
asked for miracles. I just asked to understand the Divine Mother, and for a
couple of years, miracles kept happening, which explained to me all the power
Randy: Can you give us an example of a miracle?
Sondra: I had commissioned a painting of the Divine Mother from one of Babaji’s temple painters. She spent months on it in a little hut outside of Seattle. I got nervous about this painting because I had ordered a really big picture and I thought it might not go with my décor. Even though I hadn’t seen it, I thought it would be best if I gave it to an ashram, so I told my decorator to do that. But he had a dream that he should hang it, so when I came home, it was hanging in my house.
As soon as I saw it, I gasped and said, “Okay, I surrender.” No one had been in my house for more than a month, and the whole house suddenly smelled like roses for fifteen minutes. I fell on the floor and cried and apologized for my resistance.
Then the miracles got even bigger. Ash would come out of my Divine Mother pictures. Then there was this really huge miracle with the murtis, which are these statues in India — like the Virgin Mary statues — ones that cry real tears. Murtis have the living presence in them. I went to India with my students and I was in the caves when Babaji materialized. During that day, people all over offered milk on platters to statues of the Divine Mother, and on that day, statues all over India drank the milk, which is not possible. The people rushed to get more milk and they ran out of milk all over India. This was reported on the BBC.
I asked my guru, “What is that?” He said this was the kind of miracle you see
once every four thousand years. After that, I didn’t need to see any more
miracles because I understood that the Divine Mother could do anything.
Randy: I am intrigued by the statement in your book that “To be able to write this book I had to be shattered.”
Sondra: I meant my ego had to be shattered, and all the things I had built to be in control. I had to go through the death of the ego and it was shattering. My mother died and I went into a dark-night-of-the soul kind of depression. I was stuck in guilt. I had a thought of religious guilt.
Ammachii says you have to process your family shadow, your personal shadow, and
your church shadow. That is what I had to go through — those shadows — which
were like a dark side of one’s consciousness. The personal shadow would be your
karma and past lives. The family shadow would be all the stuff from the past
that you had been taught by your parents was wrong. The church shadow would be
the ego of the church, which says you are a sinner. I had to go through all
three shadows. There is so much liberation, joy and excitement when you get
through all of that. I felt like a new person. It was so wonderful to be
liberated from the past. I don’t regret it.
Randy: You have used the word, ‘surrender’ a number of times. What do you mean by that?
Sondra: Surrender does not mean giving in. It means giving up your resistance. Resistance is our ego, which is a false self we made up to replace God. It is based on the thought that we are separate from the Source, the Mother, God, the Holy Spirit. You cannot surrender when you put up a wall around yourself. For example, are we keeping our errors, our negative thoughts? If we are keeping our errors, then the truth cannot come in and heal us.
The Goddess will solve all our problems if we surrender to her. She will create
a huge transformation from the harsh patriarchy to a more gentle feminine spirit
if we surrender to her. She will deliver us. The ivory towers we have built have
to come down. The symbolic thing about the 9-11 towers coming down was very
significant. Those two towers represented the ego, or our masculine side, or
greed. As a nation we are going through a shattering. Maybe it is good that as a
nation we are finally going to melt down, and not know, not be so cocky. With
the Divine Mother, we will head toward more harmony, instead of war.
Randy: In your book, you observe there is more sweetness in countries that worship the Divine Mother or Virgin.
Sondra: Right. Cultures in
Spain and South America are steeped in Catholicism, but have preserved
the Virgin Mary in that religion. I noticed that in places where they really
honor the Virgin — like in
Spain — or in
Portugal where they honor Fatima, I felt a real sweetness.
Randy: Can you talk more about some of your experiences with the Virgin Mary?
Sondra: The most profound experience was when my guru, Babaji, asked me to go to Medjugorje. This was in 1987 around the time of the Harmonic Convergence. In Medjugorje, the Virgin was materializing her body to a group of children. By the time I got there, it had been going on for quite a few years.
Everyone was Catholic, except me. There was no town. A boy drove me to a farm. Some people were expecting me, but they couldn’t speak any English and I couldn’t speak any Croatian. I was there for ten days. I would walk down to the church every day. It was three miles away. I would sit under the window where the Virgin Mary was appearing. Then a priest invited me in.
I was one of the few people who actually got to go inside. There were 20 Catholic priests in the apparition room from all over the world. The energy was so strong, one of the priests fainted, so they pulled him out and shoved me in, in his place. I got to sit right next to the children.
Imagine if the Virgin Mary appeared to you for eight years every day; you would be vibrating at a pretty high level. These children were vibrating at such a high level they could actually see her. When they saw her, they went into rapture. Their eyes all went up at the same time and they started crying in ecstasy. Finally, all of us, including the priest and me, started crying.
The energy was just amazing. It entered my uterus. The pain was so sharp I thought I might faint. When I came out, people wanted to touch me. It was very intense. For four days, I tried to give as much energy as I could. Then I had to go into seclusion. I couldn’t even talk about it for a year without shaking. I finally wrote the book, “Inner Communion,” which helped me to integrate that experience.
The energy in that room was the same energy that I felt in the ancient Divine Mother temples in India. Those temples were 5000 years old. I learned to recognize different aspects and forms of the Divine Mother, like the Virgin Mary in Christianity; Madame Pele, the Fire Goddess of Volcanoes; Quan Yin in Asia; and Durga and Lakshmi, among others, in India.
Over thousands of years the Divine Mother has taken form, but then she was
suppressed. We have all suppressed our inner feminine way too much. We went into
the patriarchy. It is not the men’s fault; it is the fault of our society, and
we all got addicted to the patriarchy. So now we are totally out of balance,
which is why we have all these wars going on. There were cultures that weren’t a
matriarchy worshipping the Divine Mother. There were men and women, as equals,
ruling together and there was no war. For example, they can’t find any war
Randy: So, the new movement of the Divine Mother is not the same as the reconstruction of the matriarchy?
Sondra: No. We would not want that. That would be going to the extreme out of balance again. We must all honor the Goddess Energy — the life force — and we should honor that part of ourselves that is compassionate, soft and tender. This energy is within all men and women. To honor the Mother is ultimately to honor the life force. And when you honor the life force you don’t kill people. You don’t have wars. It is a whole different framework. The old systems are going to have to unravel. They are the old paradigm.
Toward 2012, the planet is going to a new dimension, so the energy over these
next five years is going to be very strong and a lot of things are going to
change. The whole planet is
going through an ascension process, which means more light and a higher vibration and quickening. If the planet is ascending, we have to be ascending with it. So we have to change.
Randy: How can we best work with the Divine Mother or invoke her?
Sondra: There are 108 names for the Divine Mother that you can recite. They are listed in my book. You can create an altar. Get a picture of the Virgin Mary, or Ammachii or a Goddess. Say the 108 names and offer a petal after each name. Every day, offer fresh fruit and wave incense in front of the altar. That will invoke her. Ask Her for guidance. When you get up in the morning, say, “Divine Mother, how can I serve You today? How can I learn about You today?”
That is what I did. I never asked for miracles, I just asked, “What is the
Divine Mother?” because I didn’t have any idea. Miracle consciousness is
available to everyone, but miracles cannot be performed in a state of doubt or
fear. I didn’t doubt or fear, so I could experience miracles, but they are
possible for anyone.
Randy Peyser is the creator of the Write-A-Book Program. She also edits and publishes books. Visit: www.AuthorOneStop.com
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